Yesterday was the anniversary of my Mom's death. I believe it is a blessing she is not here to see my battle. It would have been very, very hard for her.
However, maybe, just maybe, she had a hand in the good news I received from my surgeon today. He told me that the pathology report was back and the good news was that I have clear margins!!!!! HURRAY...NO additional surgery to get all the cancer. The doctor got it all on the first try!!! That was VERY good news indeed!
The bad news from the same report was that The Ugly...cancer... was found in one of the 5 sentinel lymph nodes the doctor removed. Since they found cancer in one of them, that means I will definitely have to have chemo.
I had really deep in my heart believed I could "skate by" without chemo. I did not believe that cancer would be found in any of my lymph nodes. So far, I have trusted my gut instincts and they have been right on. However, my gut instinct took a BIG miss with that one. My family found out about the cancerous node before I did. I was still in surgery when the doctor told them. I am accepting the news but not liking it. I will do anything to get well, and I guess now chemo is included it that "anything"!
We have the most wonderful friends in the whole world! Yesterday, a huge gorgeous green plant arrived at our door. Thanks, Mike & Michelle!!!
Today, we got HOMEMADE knoephla soup delivered to our door. It was the best knoephla soup I have ever tasted...NOT kidding!!! I am trying to figure out where I can hide it from Arland so I can have it aaallllll to myself!!! It really IS that good! Thanks, Tom & Shawn!!!
This evening, we also got some "Magic Bean" hot dish that was so tasty! Thanks, Jack & Marcene!!! I also received many cards today. I am so very lucky to have so many people who care.
I am also blessed because I got to see all three grandchildren, Olivia, Brody, and Logan today. They make a person feel great, no matter how you are really feeling.
Olivia (11 months) is crawling everywhere and is trying to walk. Brody's birthday is tomorrow (he'll be 7) and I have to miss it for the SECOND year in a row!!! Last year, I was sitting with Arland in the hospital during his five heart bypasses. And Logan...just looking at him makes a person smile.
Logan (he will be 4 in about 3 weeks) showed me his "surgery" scar and I showed him my thyroid "surgery" scar. The boys were very disappointed in my thyroid scar because I had told them it would be a smiley face...and it ISN'T!! It's pretty straight across! :-( They really, really wanted it to be a smiley face!!!
I am going to wrap up for tonight. I'm still "foggy" so writing is challenging.
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